Monday, January 09, 2012
New year, new start.
I realise it sounds like a terrible cliché but that's how I've been feeling since 2012 started, and I'm still oddly excited about it. I've worked quite hard on customising a new theme for my blog here on Blogger (adding custom icons, adding bullets to the categories, adding an About section with a custom-created avatar and some information about myself, reorganising the footer), I joined Pinterest and Tumblr (so of course I had to customise my Tumblr theme as well ;-) ) and I still need to work on my flagship site Husitka.com because I'm planning on turning it into my main online residence. :-)
I might also help revamp the RockSaltJournals website (being one of the admins there and whatnot). :-)
Of course I still need to work on my art and shops more so that I'm finally able to make my dream of becoming a full-time artist and graphic designer come true so there's definitely a lot of work ahead but this time, it makes me excited, not scared.
And here's to hoping that my blog presence here will be much more regular in 2012, too. :-D
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Yes, it's been a long time since I last posted something here. My original plan was to start posting regularly, to find more people to connect and read my blog and to work on my art and online promotion more.
It was a good plan but didn't work out as I've been very busy with teaching for an agency that doesn't provide me with everything a good language agency should provide to its teachers ( thus forcing me to spend more of my free time by doing things the agency should do for me ) and that pays me late and gets me into financial trouble. Unfortunately, it's hard to find another job in my town, so I'm still staying with this agency.
But I'm also working on a change. Finally! I found out not long ago that I can get my trade certificate and start teaching on my own ( without any agency ), which would bring me more money because I would have no "boss" who would take the bigger part of the money I get for one lesson only because they found the student for me, and which would also provide me with ( hopefully ) more time to work on my art and its online promotion.
All I need to do is to register myself at the right department, pay 1,000 Czech crowns for the registration, start paying quite high deposits for health and social insurances even if I don't find any students right away ( and thus don't get paid ) and file all my expenses and profits for the yearly taxes.
It sounds like a lot of work and quite a lot of risk but it's still very appealing to me. I think I will give it a go. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
There's something beautiful about planning. The vision of something you want to do, something that gives you a goal you can work on, something that gives you hope, that gives your life meaning even if you had been feeling like crap only a few minutes before you started planning.
I LOVE plans. I LOVE writing them down in a notepad or into a brand new Excel sheet (because it lets me check the finished ones and keep track of the ones still ahead of me). So far, so good. But... OF COURSE THERE'S A "BUT"! My "but" (no spelling error, there should be only one T, thank you very much) is that I get discouraged very often. For the smallest of the reasons. It might be because I have a soul of an artist, and those are very critical towards themselves. Everything or nothing. Being a perfectionist doesn't help much. I can't even remember how many plans ran through my mind, how much paper I covered with my hopes and expectations, and how many times I found THE REASON not to do something. My favourite one is: "I'm not good enough. I'm not as good as others."
If you think this attitude of mine has been born because of an unsupportive family or "bad" friends, I can assure you that you're wrong. My family might have some flaws but they always support me in the end. The same goes to my friends. I even think they know what I'm capable of doing much better than I've ever known, myself. Where I see INSUFFICIENT, they see GOOD, GREAT or even EXCELLENT. If you ever meet one of my friends, they might even start convincing you I'm a real Renaissance man, well, woman. I can't tell you if they're right or wrong because firstly, I have serious problems judging myself objectively, finding my own value, and secondly, because I have always suspected them of "being nice" towards me.
Why am I writing all this? Because there's been another PLAN that came after someone I deeply care about, someone I utterly trust and someone who has helped me overcome even my worst depressions had told their partner a story about not being afraid, a story that touched the very deep soul of their partner and me alike.
The message of the story was simple: Don't be afraid to share your talents. No matter how big or small they are, there might be someone whose life could be touched and changed to the better only because you weren't afraid and shared. You never know who might be waiting for your courage.
So my dearest friend - I know you're going to read this - I want to thank you for your neverending support in a way that, I hope, will please you. I'm going to share a piece of my talent on YouTube. For you. You know how hard it's going to be for me as I always doubt myself and as I'm very afraid of negative feedback. But would it be life if we weren't risking sometimes?
And now to all of you who feel the same way like I do - insecure about their talents. Don't let your fears hold you back! Use the colours! Beauty is not in perfection!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Like a fairy from my childhood dreams
She came and saved me
Her long red hair and bright blue eyes
Guided me through the most troubled times
And I felt safe like I once did in my Mother's arms
She spoke to me when I needed to listen
She stayed silent when I longed for silence
Her laughter caressed my heart and brightened my days
Her tears taught me to think before I speak
And her songs of a better tomorrow carved a sign of hope into my heart